April 2012
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yep my 'good' day has turned into shit.
srsly i was just lying in bed and was feeling good about my first day of not binging, and then a second later i’m in the kitchen pigging out until my stomach feels like exploding. fuck. i don’t even know what triggered it or why i caved. and i can’t take laxatives cuz i’m going out tomorrow in 12 hours, and with my new recovery plan i really want to stop relying on laxies....
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day is going well so far.
day 1 of my recovery plan is going good. trying to block out all my negative thoughts and took a long walk by myself under the sun. it was lovely. it made me realize that none of this matters - i need to stop getting consumed over my body and my weight. there’s more things in life to appreciate and enjoy.
intake so far: (although i know i shouldn’t be counting calories, but i...
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bulimia, wtf?
yesterday was the 14th day in a row (despite 1-2 day of fasting in between) where i’ve binged. i felt so helpless and i was hoping so bad to get my control back. i’ve always assumed that it was just a slip up, it’ll be fine soon.
then i was reading up on eating disorders, and realized: i have all the symptoms of bulimia. except the throwing up part. i used to try to make myself...
first day of success.
fasted a full day finally for the first time in 2 weeks. although it wasn’t a strict water fast, there was no food involved at least. gonna take a sleeping pill and sleep early tonight to prevent the horrible binge episode from recurring.
binge free day: one
intake today: - one iced coffee with sugar free syrup (15) - one hot coffee with light creamer (30) - 2 cups of hot chocolate (80)...
just gonna eat it and get it over with.
WARNING: GUILT AND NEGATIVITY AHEAD
there was so much food that i was craving this week which made me binge on things that i didn’t even like because i had to find a substitute to binge on. what a waste of calories on food i didn’t enjoy.
today is the first time in 4 months that i’ve bought bad foods from the supermarket to binge on. i know i should resist and stuff but i just...
it's late don't eat don't eat don't eat.
took a nap till 1130PM and now i’m wide awake in the middle of the night - which is the time i’m most prone to binging. but instead of eating something once i wake up like i normally would, i made a 40 calorie hot chocolate instead. will not binge tonight. please please please.
i’ve still yet to have my first binge-free day, everyday i always binge at one point. today it was the...
Anonymous asked: i "binged" last night. i was so freaking hungry. i had a small bag of pretzels, a dark chocolate kit kat bar (the whole thing), fruit snacks, and a bag of cheerios. i know thats not alot but its alot for me, so i know how you feel.just keep your head up, i promise youll be able to make it to your UGW!!
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